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A Small Gift
One Shot
“Hey…” Jun smiles. “Okay, so you’re up on Nova right now and I’m missing you like crazy already-“ A frown moves swiftly across full lips and he stops abruptly with a sigh, reaching forward to end the recording, his mumbled words caught just before it clicks off. “Holy crap, could that have sounded any more needy than it did? Come on-“
Seconds later and after another brief adjustment of the camera, the pink and white haired teenager starts the recording all over again. “Okay so you’re up on Nova right now celebrating your holiday or whatever and even though I said I was okay with it, I’m really kind of not because I’m still having this major issue with the thought of someone else putting their hands all over you while you’re there. I swear if I find out that anyone crossed a line with you, I’ll totally hunt them down and kick their asse- fuck… No, that’s not what I want to say at all” he trails once more, quiet words filtering in. “Yes, please make him feel worse about it than he did by spewing that crap, you asshole-”
“Okay” Jun says with a small annoyed scowl directed at himself when the screen finally flicks back on. “So I keep trying to start this thing and I keep kind of messing it up.” Long fingers slide up to pink bangs and the Angel rakes his hair away from his face with a sigh. “Look, before you left we’d been talking about the first night we met, right?” Slipping his fingers from his bangs, the teenager’s gaze travels down to his hands as they come to rest in his lap and he smiles. “Well, see the thing is that I just really wanted to tell you what that meant to me… what it meant that you’d remembered and even though nothing between us became official ‘till April… I still… you know… I still pretty much think about that night as our real anniversary…”
Slowly pulling his gaze away from the fingers, early dawn colored eyes travel back up to meet the camera lens, the soft light from the screen illuminating his pale features in the dark of the large room that surrounds him. “It’s not that I see April any less when it comes to us, which is why you aren’t getting this until then, it’s just that… well… that night was just … something real special-“ stopping abruptly, the pink and white haired Angel waves his hands, talking a little faster than he means to in an attempt to catch himself. “Not to say that every day since then has been any less special, cause that’s not what I mean at all. Every day I’m with you is like so amazing that I can’t even begin to tell you what it means to me, it’s just that…”
Shaking his head, Jun pulls his hands back down into his lap. “It’s just that when we met that night, I was mixed up to hell and had all this crap going on… I know we’ve talked about some of it here and there and that you know most of what was happening in my life then, but it was really bad you know? And to tell you the truth…” His voice falls a little low as he continues. “Well, I was really not feeling life, like at all. The Family always had me locked up and I was still hurting from what my ex had done to me…”
A smirk crosses full lips as he looks back up towards the screen. “Stupid, huh? A year after I broke up with that guy and I was still crying about him like a little girl even though I couldn’t even remember his name because of the seal. God, if I’d even known about Haniel[*] then, none of that would have gotten to me the way that it did, but I didn’t so it was all eating me up inside and I was really hating on everything around me...”
The pink and white haired Angel sighs. “Anyway, that’s not the point of this so I don’t even know why I’m saying it because when you finally do watch this, you’re probably going to think I’m the biggest retard in the world and wonder why the hell you’re even still with me.” Laughing quietly to himself, Jun leans forward to drape his arms over his crossed legs. “The point is that when you walked into my life, things weren’t all that great for me… and you know… you totally changed that. You changed a lot of things, Zeph… I wake up sometimes and wonder how I got so lucky to be with you or what I did to make you love me the way that you do.”
A thoughtful look passes over the teenager’s features as he falls silent for a few moments before he simply smiles and shakes his head. “Well I can’t ever really grasp it to tell you the truth because it’s not like I’ve done anything real special. In fact, I think I’ve caused more trouble than anything else. It’s always been one thing or another with me hasn’t it? The Family and stuff, the issues with the seal, all the constant crap that pops up with my people, Haniel and all that shit she did to you without me knowing and then all that emotional crap that I went through after I remembered who I really was - you name it – it’s been a lot and it has to be a real pain for you to deal with since it’s a pain for me to begin with. But I don’t really have a choice in it all since I’m sort of stuck – you do though and you could have walked away so many times right? But the fact that you’ve stuck with me through it all is like… about the most amazing thing in the world to me so I wanted to tell you how much I love you for it.”
The pink and white haired Angel’s gaze rises up once again to greet the image of his face and he smiles shyly. “And I do love you for it Zeph… a lot. It sucked so much in the beginning when I couldn’t catch a break and see you as much as I wanted, really fucking sucked. The time that the Family had me held up for those two months when we first met was like pure torture and I was so scared then that I’d forget you like I’d been forgetting everyone else on top of it all. I know this sounds dorky as all hell but I’d pull your name up on my cell sometimes and fall asleep just holding it.” he looks down as a light embarrassed flush begins to stain pale features.
“I’d lay there and picture your face when I was drifting off, just holding my phone… trying to keep you with me for as long as I could manage ‘cause I was so scared that you’d start to fade like everything else had. I dunno, it was like – I wanted to do anything I could to keep you close in some way and remember… I guess when I look back on it, I think it’s kinda childish and retarded that I did that since at that point, I didn’t even think you felt the same as me and you’ll probably totally roll your eyes over it when you watch this but I just… couldn’t help myself because I think that I’d already started to fall for you then, even if I hadn’t realized that’s what it was.”
Jun glances back up and smiles only in the slightest. “I think… I kind of have a hard time saying it at times because I start to choke up or something when I’m around you, even now, which is why I’m talking to my computer and making this tape I guess.”
The pink and white haired teenager’s tone takes on a fondness that he can’t help as he continues. “But I love you Zeph, more than I’ve ever loved anyone else in my entire life and I wanted you to know that. I love being able to wake up every day now with you holding me. I love hearing your heartbeat close to mine when you sleep. I love watching you when you cook and how much you get into it. I love when we just kick it and play video games or when we get wasted and hit the clubs. I totally love seeing you smile at me. I love how amazing you are and how you can say just the right thing to make all my issues seem like they’ll just go away. I love how it feels when you touch me – god, like so fucking much that I can’t even begin to describe it. I love the way you taste when you kiss me and the way you smell. I love when you link to me telepathically and how close it makes me feel to you. I love the color of your wings and your hair and your eyes and about a million other things that would use up all the disk space on this thing if I were to keep going on about it all.” He laughs with a slight rolling of his eyes.
“Yeah, anyway, so after all that mush I totally let out, what I’m trying to say is that you mean the world to me and I’m really glad that I got as fucked up as I did the first night we met and kissed you on that dance floor ‘cause being with you has been the most incredible time of my life and if I hadn’t done it, I don’t think any of it ever would have happened. I want to be able to spend the rest of my life with you and I hope that even after you watch this and see how stupid I really am, you’ll still want to spend yours with me too. So…”
Hesitating for only a moment, the Angel leans forward to leave a small kiss on his screen before whispering. “Happy Anniversary, Zeph.” shifting away with a smile, Jun reaches forward and clicks ‘end’, his quiet words filtering in just before it stops the recording altogether. “…That had to be about the lamest thing I’ve ever done to date, seriously…”
Sitting back, the pink and white haired teenager stares at the desktop of his screen for another minute before he reaches out again to click the record button back on. “Okay so totally ignore the kiss thing because it was way too close to being something a chick would do-” his fingers slide towards the off button before he pulls back at the last moment to speak quickly at the screen. “-But all the other shit I said stands, even if it is a bit fruity-“ leaning forward, he’s about to click out once again before he slides back, this time pointing at the camera as a stern yet playful look graces his features. “Oh and when you get back, you better make good on all that needy shit you promised me before you left because having to go three some days without us fucking is really messing me up so I totally expect you to fix it. Not that you’re even going to see this until April or anything, but still – I’m kind of hard up at the moment and you better have made it right by the time you return or I’ll be super pissed at you forever, got it?” with a laugh, Jun finally completes the movement and turns the camera off once and for all.
Sliding long arms behind him and leaning onto his palms, the Angel allows his head to fall back and his eyes to slip closed. Taking a deep breath, he smiles, spending a few minutes in silence before he pulls his hands out from underneath his body and sinks back into the bed. Stretching his legs out to either side of the metallic pink laptop, Jun slips his fingers towards his stomach, his thoughts returning quickly to his boyfriend and a familiar surge spreading beneath his skin as the blonde haired Selestarri’s lithe form shifts into his mind’s eye; the feeling just as strong as it had been the very first day he’d realized just how much the Dark had meant to him.
“God, you’re such a retard, Jun.” he says to the empty room a moment later with a soft smirk.
It’s true really isn’t it? He is one. He doesn’t even need to have that answered for him to know; he’s stupid -he knows it… and a little gay on top of it as well, he snorts. But despite knowing this and despite the embarrassment he feels from it all, the fact that he’s in love and the fact that his love is returned makes the Angel happier than he’s been a very long time.
And so, he’s okay with it in the end…
[Zephyr belongs to Evphaedrielle of Bounce]
[* Haniel is what Saiyuri used to be called back int he day and since he's known her longer by that name, he has a hard time kicking the habit and referring to her any differently.]